Door of hope

If, through the process of healing and growth, you have found yourself in that in-between place that feels like an abyss, understand that He is the pro at restoring the years you feel have been lost. Don’t try to construct a spaceship to get you back to earth as quickly as possible. Most of us are ill-equipped to man, much less assemble, that ship. He IS working all things together for good, even if you cannot see or fathom it. Leave space for the space. **Fellow wordpress blogger kerri on purpose

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Toxic family

I love that Jesus teaches me how to think about well-meaning but toxic folks.

He modeled it.

And the people became offended and began to turn against him. Jesus said, “There’s only one place a prophet isn’t honored—his own hometown!”
Matthew 13:57 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/mat.13.57.TPT

And if anyone doesn’t listen to you and rejects your message, when you leave that house or town, shake the dust off your feet as a prophetic act that you will not take their defilement with you.
Matthew 10:14 TPT
https://bible.com/bible/1849/mat.10.14.TPT

Suicidal

One of the parts of my illnesses–that I am getting better and better at fighting— is wanting to take my own life—
*Wanting the pain to stop. *Wanting to quit this long distance life-race. *Wanting to decide__God-like__that I have suffered “enough” and I am going to kill myself. *Wanting to take my life into my own hands
Social taboo
People don’t talk about this enough__and that’s flat. Part of the healing in group therapy is talking and listening, right? Finding out that your feelings are normal. I mean, right? next time someone tells me “I just want to kill myself”… I’m going to say, without batting an eyelid, I’m sorry. I hate it when I feel like that. Then just sit there and be at peace with them. And maybe go for an 🍨. Just sayin’

Paradigm shift

​(Holy one ☝Help me say this the way You did this morning.

I am not the only one who can’t get over something I did.)

(#12th step, dears.)

I was squirming on my couch over parenting stuff, as per usual as I woke up…


Bllrring!  God helped me see it differently this morning.

I’m gonna be ok.

I can do this.

He won’t leave me.

He knows all the water that has gone under that bridge.

and I can talk to Him about it.

I will let His blood be enough to pay for all that I did wrong as a young mom.  All the times I disassociated when they needed me.  All the times I missed their activities.  All the times I lost my temper.

MY HIGHER POWER GETS IT.

I don’t need my kids to absolve me from it as well.
I am Redeemed!

Song.  Just a sec.

https://binged.it/2ZKCnjA

Paradigm shifted.

He won’t leave me.

He knows all the water that has gone under that bridge.

I can talk to Him about it anytime without background information.

but I will let His blood be enough.

I don’t need my kids to absolve me as well.

🌻🙏🌻🙏🌻

I am Redeemed.

Lyrics

Seems like all I can see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me “son
Stop fighting a fight that’s already been won”

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off theses heavy chains
And wipe away every stain now I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed
I’m redeemed

All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head”
I remember oh God, You’re not done with me yet

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off theses heavy chains
And wipe away every stain now I’m not who I used to be
Because I don’t have to be the old man inside of me
‘Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I’ve got a new name, a new life I’m not the same
And a hope that will carry me home

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off theses heavy chains
And wipe away every stain now I’m not who I used to be

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off theses heavy chains
And wipe away every stain now I’m not who I used to be

Oh God I’m not who I used to be
Jesus I’m not who I used to be

‘Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed

Songwriters: BENJI COWART, MICHAEL WEAVER, MICHAEL DAVID WEAVER
© Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
For non-commercial use only.
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