Rebuilt. Restored. Renewed.

We can claim this promise: because of JESUS we are grafted into the this promises God made to Abraham.

The promises of God are “yes” and “amen “ in Christ Jesus.  (2 Corinthians)

I take this to the bank.


Internal boundary 🌷

Giving myself eight more minutes to work on this problem. 

Then it’s going to go in my

  •  someoneelsesproblem box
  •  or my God box
  •  or my later box
  •  or all three. 


    I am not freaked out 

     I am adequately stable at the moment ,

    not in imminent danger of being suicidal ,

    not inordinately vulnerable to outside stressors. 

    Come to think of it those are all good things 

    being sick

     for eight years have given me. 

    🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁 🌈 🎁

    Hope breath 

    “…Here’s the best part.

    “If you’re feeling particularly burdened by the destruction you’ve brought into your child’s world

    “and believe the situation to be hopeless,

    “you need to know a powerful truth:

    “Your child’s life and outcomes at this point are not dependent on you. What happens from here on out is up to him(her).

    “(S)He can actually go on to have a wonderful, adequate, even beautiful life, even if it is in spite of you. “


    Is it weird that I feel so encouraged by this?

    Probably. But there you are.


    Parental guilt.

    Hard part of my journey.

    There’s stuff back there when I was in the worst of my addiction and undiagnosed mentally ill life….

    That I would give anything

    to make go away.

    Deep breath.

    I release myself. 🙏

    Gotta learn to love my enemy—even when it’s me.


    Carbs 🌾

     I have seen some amazing things, which the Lord has done, in answer to my fasting and prayer for my kids.

    ​​God is calling me to another fast for something specific. 

    I have been fussing.

    Quite a bit.

    “I like​ food!”
    , my flesh is yelling!

    But do I like it more than healing and wholeness in my family?

    afterall: What can food actually do to comfort me?

    True: carbs provide a burst of serotonin to my brain which I have relied on in the past as a reliable source of good feelings.  Those feelings lasted approximately as long as I was still chewing.

    Indeed. There is some comfort to be had from food.


    Man does not live by bread 🍞 alone

    But by what?

    That’s good food.