Bull’s-eye 

https://bible.com/bible/97/psa.25.10-12.MSG

Our past mistakes and wrongdoings 

often prevent us from approaching God freely for help.

 But like David, we can choose to run to God. 


His calamity was too intense

 to miss the moment 

to beseech God’s help. 


We can have the assurance David had that 

God would forgive his wrongs 

and show him the right path.  

YouVersion devo today


Stand still 🌷👒🌻

We frequently don’t know what to do;

nevertheless, [the world, the devil, or the flesh] pressures us for answers that we don’t have.

[They try] to make us believe it is our responsibility to solve our problems 

when the Word of God clearly states

 that our job as believers 

is to believe

—not solve our problems. 

We believe,

and God works on our behalf

to bring answers

that meet our needs.

Joyce Meyer devo today


Rough Season– don’t you think?

 I’m surprised we’re still here, aren’t you?

I have now listened to the Ps 121, Ps 37, Ps 18 and\or Rick Warren, Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, RT Kendall, Steven Furtick and a bunch of other sermons and scripture.

Roughly 32 billion times.

i love 💕 it

Conclusion…we are going to make it guys. 

strengthandcourage.That is what I am talking about.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. That’s in 2 Corinthians.

#gonnamakeit

God is not going to overestimate my stress capacity.  He’s got the specs…….

For my soul.

The Bible says “He formed my inward parts in the secret places”  ps 139.  That has got to include capacity indications.

Like I know how many corn dogs my kids will eat when I’m cooking. Like I know how much ⛽ to put in my car when I’m filling it.

I have to start by giving it to Jesus

asking for His help just to breathe.

trust God.

He’s got the specs:

Saying sorry 

It’s complicated.

Ammends.

Ugh.

I’m working my steps here.  But…

What Is Step 9?

Step 9 begins:

“Make direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.”*

…my grown kids are a toughie.

They are ssssoooo tired of hearing me say “I’m sorry”.

Because I have often used that statement in the past to excuse and ask for absolution.

* I copied this from a very helpful article by buddy t  at verywellmind.com

So I’m trying to get a new way of saying Sorry.

By helping others

By helping and not hating myself

By praying for my kids and grands every day

By watching 👀 for opportunities to do good that do not take credit or manipulate.

By being the thing I wish I had

Innocent and cheerful

Relentless but not pushy, just infectious

quirky Optimism

Forgiveness …forgiven… forgiving

Let it go.

Make room for love

Blameless

Torturous gut-wrenching self-catered and perpetuating self-hatred.

Been thinking 🤔 about this with Jesus.

Working on it with my therapist.

You know what the rub is?

The thing

I have flashbacks about and

that keeps me up at night?

The Cure

How I must have hurt the innocents in my path

during the worst of

my addictions or
mental health issues or

_____ you fill it in.( ‘bet you can without even batting an eye.)


What is acceptable collateral damage?

Who has to accept it?

How do I accept it?

Jesus.

You were the ultimate collateral damage.

Father forgive them for they know not what they do right? (Luke23)

Give me Your wisdom on this.

Amends aren’t only for victims. They are for perpetrators too.

Speak gentle words of comfort into my tired, guilty heart.

You are my only hope.

put it in your pipe and smoke it

“Some people say it is morbid to be always thinking of one’s faults

“That would be all very well if most of us could stop thinking of them

“without soon beginning to think about those of other people.

“For, unfortunately, we enjoy thinking about other people’s faults.

“And in the proper sense of the word morbid,

“That is the most morbid pleasure in the world.

“We don’t like rationing which imposed upon us;

“But I suggest one form of rationing which we ought to impose on ourselves:

Abstain from all thinking about other people’s faults, unless your duties as a teacher or a parent make it necessary to think about them

“Whenever the thoughts come unnecessarily into one’s mind, why not simply shove them away and think of one’s own faults instead?”

CS Lewis, The Search for God

Things to 💕

“Sarah Plain and Tall” – the book 📚 or the movie🍿

Good, hard-working, honest mechanics

Lady bugs, spiders, and chickens – the warriorguard of the home garden

Binge-watching “Sherlock Holmes” with Martin Freeman and Benedict Cumberbatch

It’s at 221B

The sound of rain 🌧️ on the window

english cream tea

Precious Ramotswe and Mma Makutsi

Walking my dog 🐕

Crackling fires

Thankful for a 🌎 with such wonderful things in it.

Blue Christmas 🎄

Unmet holiday expectations.
Misunderstandings. Hurt feelings.

Ok. Deep breath. ________ are people of good will. Doin’ the best they can. They don’t know how to do better. And part of that is on me. (But not all of it.)

#12 step

#amendsarehard

Hurt peoplehurt people.

Am I the only one? I wonder.


https://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-lifestyle/stress-management/in-depth/stress/art-20047544

Stress, depression and the holidays: Tips for coping
Stress and depression can ruin your holidays and hurt your health. Being realistic, planning ahead and seeking support can help ward off stress and depression.

You know what?

They’ll get it together.

Or not. That’s up to them.

But I’m not waiting for that to happen.

We’re gonna make new memories. Me and mine. Make our own Christmas sunshine.

Jesus please help me to help other people who hurt on this day. In Jesus’ name Amen

#letssticktogether

Flashback nightmares ⚡

Jesus.

Thank you for this uncomfortable and debilitating mental problem.

Holy Spirit help me to submit and learn from my stuff instead of wasting my energy fighting it.
I intensely want Your comfort.  My vision of myself and my life is broken.  I am weary in every way.

I need You God.  I intensely want You. 🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻

Refresh my hope 💔

Lift my chin 👍👍👍

Renew my strength 💪


(Image from YouVersion)