Unfairness


Lord God  our Father,
No one gets to live on this earth

without getting touched

by injustice or betrayal. 


No one.


You know about injustice and betrayal–for certain.



Two specific things come to mind that I am heartsore over: three betrayals within my own extended family system and/or neighborhood.

I’m sorry for hanging on to these bitter thoughts for so many years, God.  You have forgiven me of tons of yucky stuff–I release _____ now, with You helping me.

  Help me to go forward as a free woman, Jesus. 

It is for freedom that Christ has set you free. Stand fast in it, and do not submit again to that yoke of bondage.

Don’t let me get distracted, Father.  I want to walk in freedom.

I want to take Your yoke and learn from You. 

I am exhausted and stressed out:

give me rest for my soul, God.
Amen.

white picket fence

Dreams

We’ve all got ’em.

That’s why first love and heartbreak infamously hurts so much.

Everyone who’s older than third grade knows this, right?

When my first husband left me, back in my early twenties, it wasn’t his physical presence that I missed.  That sucked monkey giblets: don’t misunderstand…

but honestly, I didn’t even like him.

 You know what I mean? He was an compulsively unfaithful alcoholic with control issues.

There’s no way I was missing that.

I mean, c’mon.

It was the dream of building a life together.  

That’s what hurt to lose.

Raising children together.  

Growing old together.

My white picket fence.
🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾🌾

So What’s my point here?

Well, I was just thinking about this stuff with Jesus:

and you know what?

He’s bigger than that dream.

The happiness that I am discovering now,

as I walk with my Father:

Knows

No 

Fences.

 

I am content.

6th step for parents who have abused

Need a little help?

I’ve been thinking. About the sixth step. This is hard for parents who’ve abused or neglected their children.

There’s stuff back there that I do not want to own. You know? (It’s probably hard for everyone, but I don’t have to repent for everyone–just me.)

Step Six
“Were entirely ready to have God remove all
these defects of character.”


“THIS is the Step that separates the men from the boys.”

So declares a well-loved clergyman who happens to be one
of A.A.’s greatest friends.

He goes on to explain that any
person capable of enough willingness and honesty to try re-
peatedly Step Six on all his faults—without any reservations
whatever—has indeed come a long way spiritually, and is
therefore entitled to be called a man who is sincerely trying
to grow in the image and likeness of his own Creator.

–BIG BOOK OF AA author anonymous

Just sayin’.