Door of hope

If, through the process of healing and growth, you have found yourself in that in-between place that feels like an abyss, understand that He is the pro at restoring the years you feel have been lost. Don’t try to construct a spaceship to get you back to earth as quickly as possible. Most of us are ill-equipped to man, much less assemble, that ship. He IS working all things together for good, even if you cannot see or fathom it. Leave space for the space. **Fellow wordpress blogger kerri on purpose

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Things I love 💘

(Jesus I need some help here. #primethepump)

I appreciate these things:

  • Dogs friendly ears
  • Babies that smell like milk
  • Cleaning with some good music on
  • The fuzzy hair that stands up on baby elephants heads
  • Ears– so many different kinds!
  • Fingernail polish
  • Tulips–so graceful and elegant
  • Soft chenille pillow cases
  • earl grey, hot
  • Captain Picard
  • Cool, green grass
  • Misty shores
  • Waterfalls

Thank You Jesus.  You did good. 🌷

Processing…

Some kids that I care about are making bad choices right now.

Broken hearted parent

I know Jesus will not blow sunshine about this.
He will tell me the truth.

Not everything that my kids do as adults is about me

But some of it is.

Parenting mistakes

I did make some really bad mistakes
Especially when the twins (child #4 and #5,) were little and I was in the worst of my addiction and disassociation and losing time.

Especially when my kids got older and we got in adult-type arguments.

I remember new stuff all the time. Now that I am flat on my back in bed. I try not to obsess over it.

I own it. I’m sorry.

I’m learning new skills.

That’s all I can do.

But
God can do more.

God
Will
Restore
The

Years

Those bad choices stole from us.

I’m grafted in to Abraham in Jesus. I claim this promise in all it’s spiritual richness and meaning. It’s mine.

He’s got a multi generational plan going here.

I trust Him at His word.

“NEEDTOBREATHE – “LET’S STAY HOME TONIGHT” [Live From Celebrating Out of Body]” on YouTube

I was just thinking about something with Jesus.

Hubby and I have friction over whether to go out or stay home quite a bit.

Bring it on!

We have regular dates

1. once a week for conflict resolution

2. and once a week for fun.

And he will often say he wants to stay home.

While I have been home all the time and want to get out of my sickbed and see something beside my walls.

Deflated

This song came to my mind as I was pondering……so I looked it up on YouTube and was listening to it again prayerfully with God.

I suddenly saw that this– our home– is my husband’s Oasis.

he’s safe here.

He can rest and relax and let his hair down in respite.

Of course he would not want to leave it!

It’s sweet that he wants me to be in it with him.

I think instead of being resentful at him and thinking he wants me to be constricted and limited,

I will reframe it reboot my heart

and find it endearing

that he wants to be safe at home with me.

We still need to compromise maybe every other time we can go out or something. I need that.

But

it helps me to understand where he’s coming from you know?

#resentfultograteful

#loveunderstandsme

#soulmates

Youversion nails it 💕

Have mercy on me for in You I take refuge.*** I will take refuge in the shadow of Your wings *** until the disaster has passed. Ps 57:1

It may take us a while to get to the other side; some of our plans and dreams may be on hold for a short while. We may have to cut back a bit and make some changes.

At the same time, we wait, but rest assured the prophetic Word God gave you before this storm still stands firm in heaven, and it will manifest in this earth if you stand firm on his Word.

As we …pick up the broken pieces and rise out of the ashes, keeping our eyes on Jesus, knowing he is with us, we can stand in his authority.

This principality will fall, and the purpose you were called to will manifest—hold on to His Word because you will make it to the other side!

Youversion devo “Purpose in the Storm” for today

Identity


I needed this today.  Feeling orphaned and shunned by my abuse and crime-ridden family.  Grossed out by the people I come from.

But

God tells me that I am what I am.

Neither above
nor below
my family.

Proud to be from my people
Because we are from Eve
Humbled to be from my people
Because we are from Eve

Thank You God. 
You tell me the truth.

You are my reason. You are all my reasons.”

I love You back, Papa God.

Peace

Trade

I used to think I was hot stuff. I did everything. Was in control of it all. Kept all my plates spinning. Was a bit bossy and abrasive, frankly.
woMan on a Mission
Then MS happened and DID happened and foolish life choices happened…all ashes But all that doesn’t matter now. As much as Jesus. He’s got a plan for me which is good and hopeful and full of promise. (Jeremiah 29:11) He’s enough. He’ll work it out. He will give me beauty for those darn ashes. (Isaiah 61)
Paul tells himself the truth

Pressure off 

God’s not like that . He gets it.

I think our feminist-influenced media gives our guys too much grief, not enough support.

They put the bar up there so high, that no guy could reach it.

I think the average guy loves his family and wants to take care ❤ of them. But the MrRogersmeetsscottishhighlandlaird ideal that the media idealizes is NOT real life.

Am I right?

I want my hubby to feel relaxed, accepted and admired at a 7 with the occasional 5 and occasional 8 or 9.

I want to be secure in my relationship with Jesus.

Jesus is my 10.

Always strong and confident, always tender and empathetic. That’s my God.

🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻

Soul food

Remember that commercial for mountain dew?

Where the guy Is hot and tired

 And takes a drink of mountain dew 

and then, in his mind, falls into a huge lake of refreshing, cold water?

I remembered that commercial from the 80s when I was Thinking about this verse with Jesus.


I feel a sense of nostalgic longing, or burning in my soul.

Don’t you?

Like on the road to Emaus (luke 24) when the disciples asked each other– after Jesus appears, explains the scriptures to them, and then disappears –“we should’ve known it was Jesus because didn’t our hearts burn within us?”

I also remembered the verse in the song of songs that says refresh me with Apples and raisins for I am sick with love (song of songs 2)

also, the Bible talks about David and his warriors finding a survivor of the Canaanite raiders (Ziklag), who rode off with their stuff and their wives and children while they were gone. They find an Egyptian slave who was left for dead. He hasn’t eaten For days, and been sick with a fever, and the Bible says they gave him water and a cake of figs and he was refreshed and revived in his soul and could talk to them about which way the bad guys went. (1 Sam 30:11)

Thank you Father for your word that is meat and drink to my soul .

#keepsmegoin’