Suicidal thoughts


I claim this promise.  I am part of a spiritual Israel!  A new heritage. crafted in to the vine of Abrahams destiny because I am in Jesus Christ.

 where is that passage?  Oh. 2 Corinthians.

It is a spiritual reality.

 All the promises of God are yes and amen In Jesus, right?

​This was a very timely word for me.

 I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts.  

Part of my illness.  

 Brain damage from exposure to toxic chemicals.  

I believe that is what autoimmune disorders are: the immune system simply gets overwhelmed with all the chemicals of our modern lifestyles and goes haywire.

I am just not able to do anything!  Stuck in bed! And my thoughts prey upon me.

 Except I can pray.

 I need a word from God.

I have believed this lie: That it doesn’t affect change when I pray.

It’s hard for me to believe in stuff I can’t see.

 God change us. 

Give us faith. 

 Heal our thinking 

Renew our Courage and tell us again:

I matter.  I have a destiny.  I am NOT forgotten. 🙏


Author: strawberry0043

i am married to my best friend. I love Jesus more than life. I have an autoimmune disorder. I have joyfully born five children and been pregnant with seven. I have a disabled child. I have a mentally ill family member who abused my child and lied about it. I have one prodigal child who I may never see again.💚 I enjoy dealing with life as it is, not as it should be.💚 I have been unhappily and happily married to one man since 1995 (thank heaven!) I want to encourage💚 share hope in my world💚 Remind us and equip us to live in this difficult century. 💚June 2020

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