Pointed

God is the most incredible person

I have ever come in contact with
And I am completely and gratefully gobsmacked

by His existence.

I must be careful not to turn the beautiful astonishing thing He did into a reason to exclude and judge people.

Yes morality matters deeply
Yes certain behaviors are deeply wrong
Yes there is a right and wrong to the universe

But I don’t want to miss the whole point.

The point is

finding lost sheep
Reuniting with prodigal sons
Finding a priceless pearl
Relationship

Love

God help me not to be so busy making sure I am right
That i save all the moral bathwater
And lose the baby

Planted by the Water

http://theafricanbrain.wordpress.com/2014/07/19/trees-of-the-river/

Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked 

or stand in the way that sinners take 

or sit in the company of mockers,  

but whose delight is in the law of the Lord , 

and who meditates on his law

 day and night. 

 That person is like a tree planted

 by streams of water,

 which yields its fruit in season 

and whose leaf does not wither – whatever they do prospers.

Psalms 1:1‭-‬3 NIVUK

https://bible.com/bible/113/psa.1.1-3.NIVUK

Wings 

FatherGod,

I just heard our adult disabled daughter clear her throat loudly AGAIN. 

It is 1:36 am.   

Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease. (GERD.)

She has been doing this throat clearing thing about six times an hour
For days.
No, probably weeks.

I’m not sure.

Poor darling.  She can hardly sleep at all.

Chinese water torture.


My heart is broken and sore and tired of suffering with her too.

🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷

yesterday 

I found her weeping in front of the toilet 

where she had just been trying to throw up again. 

 With her face in her hands.  


I didn’t know what to do besides pray.  

So I did.

We’ve already tried banana, chamomile, honey, Apple cider vinegar, sipping hot liquids, real yogurt.

We contemplate trying dandelion root, turmeric, ginger, Zanex.

but meanwhile…here we are


Suffering.

God, You know about this.
You have measured the weight of it on our tired shoulders.  

Held our hair away from our faces as we vomit for the umpteenth time. 

 Walked the floor with us at night. 

 When well-meaning others don’t get it.

When we ask, “Why?”

God, my daughter wonders if You answer prayer. 

Both my girls do.  All their friends do.

Show Yourself powerful and empathetic and wise.

Show Yourself present and kind and steady.

All the things You have shown me through suffering.

We need a Father right now.

Identity?



I think I have gotten my life
out of focus.
I have based my worth and happiness
on myself as parent.

Instead of basing it on something
that cannot
be taken away from me:

Jesus.

This has led to problems
and pain
for me and my kids.

I want to correct this. It’s not that parenting doesn’t matter.

But it’s not the main thing. It’s just part of me.

Help me, Jesus.

Real love 💘

I don’t want you to feel false guilt and shame

because we didn’t finish that good thing we tried to do.

No pressure

#ratraces-stink

I accept you the way you are.

You are my man.

I chose YOU twenty-five years ago at a lighthouse in Newport, Oregon.

Hitched my wagon to your 🌟

🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻

*No fakes.

**Relaxed

***Safe.

People can’t be perfect, you know?

Well they shouldn’t have to try.

🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻🌷🌻

That’s why Jesus came, isn’t it?
To set 🌎 free from the rat race?

True love

*liberating

**inviting

***breathoffreshair

****LOVE

makes the 🌎 world go ’round.

#wannabethat